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In quotes on September 29, 2009 at 4:43 pm

“Do things for people not because of who they are or what they may do for you in return, but because of who you are.” – Harold Kushner

Another Wasted Day

In finances, marriage on September 28, 2009 at 12:13 pm

I can’t even begin to describe the turmoil around job loss, forclosure, car repossesion, and separation. As if that’s not enough, the inability for a broken man to get up,…. to improve his situation. Hopeless. Time is wasting for us to have the chance to hold on to what we worked for, and he just remains still.

The Foodie in Me…

In Outings, food on September 28, 2009 at 11:26 am

Over the weekend I headed to what I heard was a gourmet hot dog spot,…. gourmet hot dogs? I read  “wild game artisan sausages” somewhere too and was a little nervous. But I also read there were vegetarian options,… so it was safe to explore , you know, just in case. It is the featured restaurant this week in Flavors of Austin .

Frank’ took a spot right on Colorado street, in the warehouse district, to serve us some interesting swanky dogs…. chicago dog, chili cheese dog, slaw dog,… ( I tried the veggie chicago, YUM!)… And you can even have the option of wrapping these puppies in bacon, filled with cheese, and deep fried- if you were on your way to the hospital anyway! Seriously, it’s Texas,… we do this crap well.

Many a manly man loved the Gator Boudin fritters with green chili remoulade last night,…um, ya. Sorry, I couldn’t just yet. Let me work up a tolerance first, or swing back a few Day Tripper cocktails at least. My favorite ” taste tested” cocktail was ‘Cream’,… Patron XO Cafe, Amy’s Coffee Ice Cream, and Boylen’s all natural cream soda…. need I say more?

Frank was a surprise around every corner, a little market grocery, a phenomenal espresso bar, great innovative cocktail mixes, artisen sausages, beer,desserts, and really yummy gourmet dogs.  Sounds like a strange mix, which is exactly why you gotta go see it. It just works. I’m takin outta-towners there, its definitely a unique niche to remember visiting Austin, and a cool place to hang out as a local. The next couple of days are a great time to try ‘Frank’, they are offering discounted menu items for the Flavors of Austin event ,… so GO! Your also suppporting Sustainable Food Center of Austin, ….sweet.

You gotta check out the menu here,…. so interesting

Frank

More on Flavors of Austin,…

Flavors of Austin


Check it…

In Blogs on September 28, 2009 at 9:52 am

Blogger Dads Rule!! ,….. some new links you may like

Mocha Dad

Building Camelot

Dad Blogs

Luke, I Am Your Father

Rotflmaonaise

In words on September 28, 2009 at 12:50 am

A totally random form of rotflmao that sounds like mayonaise was added, to steal crowds of laughing people from a comedic person in a chat,… This could be a gamble lol

- Urban Dictionary

All In A Week

In everybody get random on September 28, 2009 at 12:25 am

Keywords to my last seven days:

teshuva, job loss, milestone, casting, emotional abuse, wii, stress, foreclosure, sweet new year, rain, fear, insecurity, suicide, bday party, sabbath, sherrif, pain, freedom, separation, bikerides, peace, happiness, polomatch, social media, food!, school, bowling, therapist, went potty!, rewards, good behaviour, bills, modeh ani, homework, knife, academics, Hebrew, schlepping, speech therapy, cane, shema, lost a tooth!, laughter,….

Why Didn’t We Go Over the Bridge Mama?

In kids, parenting, special needs on September 25, 2009 at 7:55 pm

As I tucked in my youngest boy, he asked me ” why did my sister have to spend the night at the hospital a long time ago?”
This happened in February sometime, it’s been awhile,….We were at the park about to go for a walk down the trail and over a bridge when my daughter started to have a seizure. We all left quickly to the car, and got EMS. So I told him why she stayed at the hospital overnight,… And he started to cry as he said,” why didn’t we go over the bridge?” awwww, the loss even he had from that moment resonated in me as I comforted him. We all felt a loss of some kind, I didn’t realize until now what his was. Bless his heart. We will be going back to that bridge this weekend, we’re going over it!

Separated

In marriage, relationships on September 25, 2009 at 11:34 am

Update:  We took a three to four day hiatus,…..( I wish that said Hawaii, but it so does not )  to get some priorities straight and maybe create some breathing room. We did however work out a deal come Monday about staying in the same house again,… and my husband returned. The major problem? Respect. In times of stress, we both need to still remain respectful in the way we communicate and the words we choose to say. It’s easy to let fear  lead to hate, hate lead to anger, and anger  turn you to the darkside,….( hehe)

Luckily we have both remained on the good side.

More!Confessions of the 80’s

In Twitter, confessions on September 25, 2009 at 9:54 am

Created by @yasowhat

Installment 3

1. Brazilian wax?!?!? whats that???

2. I wanted to stick i flashing sideways lil_250_187_285D114A-6877-464E-84FB-079C263F785A.jpegght on my Pinto so i can be as kewl as Knight Rider!!

3. I rocked it too

4. I LOVED my kung-fu shoes (cotton mary jane flats). AND my Jellies!

5. I had the #1a garbage pail kid collector card , the Dracula eating the Barbie

6. Gremlins!!!!!

7. “EAT MY SHORTS”

8. Pom poms on my shoe laces and roller skates

9. I owned one of those prairie style shirts w/ poofy sleeves AND pink peddle pushers.All those mall singers (Tiffany, Debby Gibson, etc.) should tour. Like Idol.

10. *Hand square under and side of face*

11.Me and my pink boom box never parted

12. I once got a huge Ghetto Blaster on Xmas. The kind that tp_512_409_D28170F1-800D-4E6E-9DAF-A96E979C8F0E.jpegook 8 D batteries. Me & my friends carried that thing on R shoulder

13. I owned fingerless lace gloves.

14. I not only had the trolls, but also the treehouse they lived in.

15. I was a Dallas Cowboys fan …. ::: SMH:::

16. I use to wake up at 5am to watch Felix the Cat and the Little Rascals

17. I dressed up ap_512_361_1FE91DB5-57AF-41D9-9128-8F8087569D70.jpegs Alf, couldn’t see a thing out of that mask, tripped into a sand bur pile and went home crying

18. I am wonder woman

19. hahaha garbagepail kids!!! “AwfulAmber ” card” my best collector!!!LOLOL

20. If you mention Tiffany, you have to include Debbie Gibson; she had her own fragrance as well, afterall

21. Cmon, vogue *vogue dance*

Tweets here and in past/ future posts of ” Confessions of the 80’s ” contributed by:

cataractmoon; BenJoBubble; willmarch; mstrhank; joyful76; gpsrunner; oOJulie;  musicloverchick; jessewatson1; Yasowhat; mochadad; Glass_Half_Full;  Babblenaggs; RaiscaraAvalon; SonnyJohns; ianlisk66; RealtorMichelle; bandaidz; CoCoBox; PHILIPGRANGER; Jackl12 ; alphaisforever; justashle; Biff_da_Bear; rockstarima; MadHatterMom; jpthornton; jimgito;AmberAusten

Upper Case Voice

In words on September 25, 2009 at 9:24 am

Noun. to raise your voice or accentuate part of a sentence to stress significance as you would while typing in the digital world.

“Listen! Don’t make me use my Upper Case voice!”

- Urban Dictionary

Fear May Scream

In quotes, spirituality on September 24, 2009 at 7:36 am

Fear may scream loudly,….but faith speaks boldly, hope speaks joyfully, and love speaks tenderly.
These voices, though not always as loud, are stronger, clearer, and above all- have the answer to the challenge fear is screaming about.
- Carece Slaughter

Tested Limits

In marriage, relationships on September 23, 2009 at 8:32 pm

It really can’t get more horrible or uncomfortable. Nobody would be so disrespectful to me. If there is any button to push, my husband is trying to. Childishness and immaturity abound, lies, going back on his word, and mean words spill freely out of his mouth. I’m trying to stay calm and not react to all of the ridiculous comments. My self control is being tested to it’s highest degree, and I feel incredibly lonely and hurt.
God help me,….

Confessions of the 80’s

In Twitter, confessions on September 23, 2009 at 10:44 am

Created by @yasowhat

Installment 2

1.  I had leather piano ties and pastel, Pringle sweaters
2.  I would wear hypercolor t shirts with that little circle thingy 2 make it tight on the side
3. u couldnt tell me I wasn’t a thundercat.I even had the sword of oml_512_384_E74CBD85-9A72-453B-9885-75577A618808.jpegen!
4. my barbie & her friend midge were 2 good 4 ken they dated my g I joes!!
5. had a perm in the back with mall bangs in the front… And I had neon spandex biker shorts!
6.  I remember when a motto was “get the 8-ball …then you have enough to share w/the hookers”
7.  I wore “Stirrup Pants”, had a Perm, and OMG… I cannot continue!
8.  I also had huge hair and i dressed like Cindy Lauper and wore makeup like Boy George
9.  I shaved my sisters cabbage patch doll!!
10.  I used to melt my GI Joe Action figures together to make mutant enemies!!!
11. Tiffany – “I think were alone now..”
12. I may or may not have but definitely did have a pair of parachute pants…or two
13. NewKidsOnTheBlock, N’Sync, Spice girls??? pffft Kids Incorperated was IT!!!
14. My friend thought one of my ex girlfriends looked like a monchichi!!
15. I once hankerd for a hunk of cheese!!
16. I left Zartan in the sun for 24 hours and he turned so blue he wouldnt turn back!!
17. I luved the show ALF
18. i once wore a Michael Jackson glove!!! l_512_410_3111AEF3-A925-4F86-9D69-6D1BA8F82F0A.jpeg
19. I once had a Grand Am that was 6 DIFFERENT exterior colors; 2 shades of bondo, 2 of primer & 2 of paint!
20. I wanted to fly helicoptors!!! thanks to Airwolf and Blue Thunder!!!!

Tweets here and in past/ future posts of ” Confessions of the 80’s ” contributed by:

cataractmoon; BenJoBubble; willmarch; mstrhank; joyful76; gpsrunner; oOJulie;  musicloverchick; jessewatson1; Yasowhat; mochadad; Glass_Half_Full;  Babblenaggs; RaiscaraAvalon; SonnyJohns; ianlisk66; RealtorMichelle; bandaidz; CoCoBox; PHILIPGRANGER; Jackl12 ; alphaisforever; justashle; Biff_da_Bear; rockstarima; MadHatterMom; jpthornton; jimgito;AmberAusten

Ill Focus

In relationships on September 23, 2009 at 8:44 am

Will he ever turn around? Clearly, he’s obsessed with focusing on the negative. Who can live their life that way, and expect it to work? In a clean room find a spec, and talk only about that spec and how dissappointed you are that it’s there. How you expected it not to be there and how upsetting it is. Discuss with anyone around you how hideous you find this spec to be in your life! Don’t remove the spec quietly, hold it up, stare at it, put everything else out of focus so your eye can see this spec clearly. The comfortable chairs and inviting room that are waiting in the room aren’t seen. People will pass by you as you stare, children will grow without you, life will be missed,….

Nogas

In words on September 23, 2009 at 8:02 am

N-O-G-A-S
no one gives a shit

He said : ” me me me me me me, all about me me me, ouch, me me me”

Me: “nogas dude, it’s a much bigger world”

- urban dictionary

Deceitful Heart

In divorce, marriage, relationships on September 23, 2009 at 7:19 am

A man so afraid of looking at his own self. He will avoid it at any cost, even
his own freedom to achieve. Everything he touches seems to be destroyed, goodness undone. It seems to be a family legacy of foolishness and uncommon sense. Nothing can change the path of his thoughts or the plan of his heart. Yet his heart deceives him continually, without fail. Absent are morals and ethics, his feelings guide him down his turmutulous path. Peace will always evade him, sorrow will become his only friend. Why don’t I understand this will never change? When am I going to be able to give up my home, apologize to my children and just take my losses and go? I cry for them, only them.

Confessions of the 80’s

In Twitter, confessions on September 22, 2009 at 1:24 am

Yes,… blog style

Created by @yasowhat

Installment 1

  1. 80s torrent- Press record when radio DJ shuts upp_512_413_0009ADBB-35BB-4828-BDBB-EB7AFAE8AB07.jpeg
  2. did I wear penny loafers?
  3. Tried a vegemite sandwich *hint; men at work, duh!
  4. No Vogue; Material Girl!
  5. Two words: hammer pants
  6. Proud to have owned an original members only jacket
  7. the only time when Saturday mornin cartoons were worth waking up for
  8. Kissed a lot girls during the “slow skate” at the roller rink, ha ha
  9. Wanted mag wheels for my bmx bike…
  10. Spent a lot of time making mixtapes for my girlfriends..
  11. Knew all the words to pa c man fever
  12. Fit my skinny@ss in jord ache jeans
  13. Used to argue over which was a better system Colecovision or Atari
  14. Now push it good
  15. Used to have “ON” t.v.
  16. I had a “4 colors-in-one” Bic pen
  17. Two words for y ou: Light Bright…
  18. I tried to dial 8675309 to hook up with Jenny..
  19. My Samantha Fox poster ruled!
  20. cannot forget my love for daisy duke

Tweets here and in future posts of ” Confessions of the 80’s ” contributed by:

cataractmoon; BenJoBubble; willmarch; mstrhank; joyful76; gpsrunner; oOJulie;  musicloverchick; jessewatson1; Yasowhat; mochadad; Glass_Half_Full;  Babblenaggs; RaiscaraAvalon; SonnyJohns; ianlisk66; RealtorMichelle; bandaidz; CoCoBox; PHILIPGRANGER; Jackl12 ; alphaisforever; justashle; Biff_da_Bear; rockstarima; MadHatterMom; jpthornton; AmberAusten

Isn’t That Awesome!

In Blogs on September 21, 2009 at 7:30 pm

‘Simply Peachy’ featured on Republic Of Austin Website’s : ” Around the Republic: Roundup of Austin Blogposts Week of September 13, 2009″ under Circle of  Life heading.

Thanks Bunches! ,…. Sweet!

Kid Quote

In kidquote on September 21, 2009 at 7:12 pm

During a tantrum this afternoon, 2yo screams “I love my mommy a whole lot!”
- @DeepEddy , Twitter

Now Hiring

In parenting on September 21, 2009 at 4:21 pm

l_512_311_9D5DB002-1DD8-44DB-A877-A6706684FA27.jpegHours:
Varies daily, approximately from 6am to 9pm, as well as available for 24/7 shifts at a moments notice for client

Skills Required:

Experience selling an idea, food, or reason with great persuasion and cleverness

Superb cleaning skills a must, keeping clients home healthy, clean, and functional at all times. Janitorial work required.

Have a vast knowledge of parenting trends and training techniques, wisdom of well founded proven parenting philosophies, and implementation of these

Basic nursing techniques required: CPR, Heimlich, administration of medicines, and basic first aid.

Organize/ purchase all personal belongings of client

Ability to plan menus based on high standards of nutritional quality, purchase, and prepare all meals three times a day plus two snacks

Must have ability to manage time well

Have access to medical care and specialists, keeping them all informed and visited regularly. Ability to carry out their instructions between visits for client

Possess great accounting and budgeting skills, creating spending limits and savings goals, as well as many other aspects of financial planning.

Ability to expect and work with the highly unexpected

Make time outside of works hours for personal enrichment, self-care, and research to improve skills set

Create successful social events of a vast array of types, from a gammet of
multiple aged children to adults for client

Screening of friends and outside events to determine their credibility and worth to client

Provide a stimulating atmosphere for client , always inspiring good character, education, creativity, self actualization, spirituality, and responsibility

Ability and experience teaching reading, writing, math, science, history, and philosophy foundationally, as well as many other topics. Be up to date in current educational support tactics and implement them.

Sing nicely to client and pray for them every night, making time for lots of questions and extra requests.

Personally assist in all appointments, meetings, classes, and outings- including transportation to and from these

Be extremely influential and posses qualities client can role model positively after

Network and create positive relationships for client

Manage multiple clients at once, meeting all the above standards for each

Work in partnership with an assistant who has no knowledge of above skills in some cases, or who can be extremely unhelpful at some increments of time.Assistent may posses an entirely different work ethic and occasionally undo some of your hard work.

Promotion :
this position is unpromotable, you will be asked to give up your job at the end of contract term. Your credibility to client may suffer during certain hormonal stages. You will receive no benefits or be considered “experienced” at all by other prospective employers once position is terminated.

Pay:
this is a voluntary/ non-paying position which will require your own money to support

Thought Dominating the Day

In marriage, relationships on September 21, 2009 at 3:19 pm

Is my pessimism and ill focus really the only thing keeping me from creating a better marriage, in thought and action? Or are these circumstances/situations truly creating the loss of relationship between us and my ability to think kind and positively about my spouse?

Wives’ health suffers in strained marriage

In uncategorized on September 21, 2009 at 9:07 am

Great,…

CHICAGO, March 5 (UPI) — A strained marriage can result in both spouses getting depressed, but only wives face higher heart disease risk because of it, U.S. researchers say.

First author Nancy Henry, a doctoral student in psychology at the University of Utah, said people experiencing more conflict, hostility and disagreement in their marriages would tend to be more depressed. That, in turn, would be associated with a higher risk of heart disease due to metabolic syndrome – a risk factor for heart disease, she said.

But it turns out it doesn’t work the same for men and women, the researchers learned.

“We found this was true for wives in this study, but not for husbands,” Henry said in a statement. “The gender difference is important because heart disease is the No. 1 killer of women, as well as men, and we are still learning a lot about how relationship factors and emotional distress are related to heart disease.”

Study co-author Tim Smith, a psychology professor, said the endocrinology of depression’s psychological stress may explain why the five risk factors that comprise metabolic syndrome — hypertension, obesity around the waistline, high blood sugar, high triglycerides and low levels of high-density lipoprotein cholesterol, the “good cholesterol” –

– fit together.

Smith hypothesizes that perhaps “the hormonal effects of stress are why you are depositing fat around the waist; why your insulin resistance goes up, why your lipids and blood pressure get out of whack.”

Henry will present the findings at the American Psychosomatic Society’s annual meeting in Chicago.

© 2009 United Press International, Inc. All Rights Reserved.

http://www.upi.com/Health_News/2009/03/05/Wives-health-suffers-in-strained-marriage/UPI-45401236238450/#

Not a Model Morning

In marriage, sex on September 20, 2009 at 7:48 am

After storming out of the room last night because I didn’t meet his expectations, eh hem, this was the morning conversation that ensued as we are  getting ready to go, in a hurry:

He said : I’m not going with you then p_512_397_362008B0-158C-4E94-A49F-90AF2A732F8D.jpeg

Me: ok

He said: did you read my e mail?

Me: no, I went to sleep

He said: didn’t you get my texts?

Me: no

He said : well, I’m not going unless you read my e mail

Me: I can’t right now, just be a man and speak for yourself

He said: I’ll read it to you

Me : thinking ( oh great, lasts nights heat of the drama thoughts )

He said: read e mail aloud,( talking about sex needs, and wanting to have peace and maybe moving on )

Me : no reply

He Said : so it’s ok then

Me: what’s ok?

He said: if I go,…

Me: where?

He said: I leave, go somewhere else, not stay here

Me: *mad sigh* ( getting ready for a beautiful day with my kids at synagogue, running behind ) “Omg! What! Fine. ” ( somehow hearing the letter, I hadn’t gathered that as his goal, but ok. I call his bluff , and pretend it doesn’t phase me, and just get ready )

Some time passes, he’s frustratingly shuffling around the house

He said: why won’t you talk to me about it!

Me: I can’t get into this right now, maybe some other time, but respect that I said not now. Have some patience.

He Said : I don’t want to miss this time with the kids

Me: *silent, scrambling alone to prepare kids*

More time passes

He said: can I still go?

Me: yes, if you like,….

I think God is simply just preparing me to have teenagers,….

Back Row Babysitter

In parenting on September 19, 2009 at 8:45 pm

Today I got to shul early with my four little peeps to find a good place to sit for us , attending without husband as he had work. So I’m on my own in charge of managing the behavior of my clan, with a special needs kiddo and all. I also was very interested in actually listening to the speaker, being inspired, and learning. Isn’t that why we all came?
We decided to sit along the very back next to the “quiet room” for kids, so my daughter could play in there with me close by. Somewhere along the morning, I kept collecting other peoples kids. First, my older sons friend. I directed him to his mom nicely, but he came right back to sit with my son because he wanted to play. His mom allowed him, I wasn’t so enthused. Now I’m telling my son to pay attention despite his distracting undisciplined friend. Harder. Then I collected another boy who wanted to play with them both. Lastly, an old lady came up to my 5 year old son with a boy around l_512_309_7698D8FE-7D7F-4441-A248-541F54506B5B.jpegage 4, and said ” will you play with him so I can listen” and walks away. Wha!!!!!! Jaw dropped at my situation, I almost cried in frustration. I was struggling already with my own kids, and wanting to hear myself. Was I wearing a sign- “backrow babysitter?” Jeeze!!! I finally got all MY own kids and sat somewhere else, leaving the newly adopted ones behind. Then it was all much better. I shoulda told old lady to ask me if it was ok, not my son. The nerve! And, disrespect to our family. Well, lesson learned, moving on,….

Eat More Chkn

In snap on September 18, 2009 at 4:13 pm

That cow kept flirting with me and watching me tweet ,… The kids!!! Play with the kids!!!!

Manther

In words on September 17, 2009 at 8:42 am

The male version of a cougar; an older man who preys on younger women.

- Urban Dictionary

“Mr. Smith is such a manther, did you see his new girlfriend? She’s got to be less than a quarter of his age. “

Engagement ring

In words on September 16, 2009 at 10:23 am

A piece of jewelry, typically a ring, that is purchased for a girlfriend in an effort to make her happy after you have made her angry.

-UD

Motto

In quotes on September 16, 2009 at 9:09 am

“If I’m going to be in trouble anyway, let me enjoy getting there”

motto for today, and a few more days after that maybe,…..

With Humble Thanks

In Gratitude on September 16, 2009 at 7:27 am

We are touched with his kindness, and grateful for some relief. Good friend Michael B donated us a new set of wheels! Now the husband can transport to work, and we can ride to school together in the mornings! Its amazing what a little reaching out can do, and as this phase of our life will ever come to an end, we intend to pay it forward. With all sincerity and appreciation, Thank You MB.

Her Story : To Be Held

In her story on September 15, 2009 at 5:08 pm

My husband and I were checking up on Amariah daily and hourly, sitting by her bed talking, and even finally getting the chance to hold her for the first time….. holding her for the first time was like a long coming dream that finally came true. I was afraid to hold her, I didn’t know if I would unplug that all important wire or hurt her somehow. Even to this day my understanding of everything going on is so limited. But my fears vanished when her warmth came close to me and I was able to rock her in my arms. What a gloriousl_802_802_4CD485D8-8A5F-44FF-A106-85A6A7FFF197.jpeg moment! All of the tubes and wires disappeared, and I saw her. Into her beautiful eyes I stared,  feeling her gentle heartbeat, watching her breath, it was simply miraculous. Feeling my baby daughter next to me for the first time since that turmulous delivery was healing to my soul, and I am sure to hers as well. We both marveled at her improving health, and finally felt a little more hopeful that we would make it out of there with a new baby girl. That moment I will never forget. Naturally we spent all the time we could holding her from that point on, rocking her next to her bed as much as humanly possible. Until exhaustion. Our other children arrived to us at this point, and we said our goodbyes to the grandparents. Now we were managing the health of our baby, and two toddlers, in a place away from home- a hospital and a hotel style room. Alexandria and Anthony were four and two, wow, they were as good as they could be. The Ronald McDonald house had a huge playroom they enjoyed immensely, and an outside playground. It just got very difficult for the both of us to be at the hospital together, because the tots couldn’t hang there so patiently. It was hectic, but what did it matter? We were all in this together, and the children got to visit their new sister for the first time, talk with her, and understand a little bit about what was happening. If you ask them today, you know what they remember? How much fun they had, playing with certain toys at the Ronald House. There was a McDonald’s Drive through play set they talk about all the time,… it’s funny what sticks. We also have a special quilt from them given to Amariah, and a few toys that were donated to kids staying there. It was a scary time only remembered by our family as a blessing. They are obviously doing something right. Ronald McDonald House,…. as I am sure many others before us and many after, you helped us in a way that can never be matched. We are thankful for what you provided us during our daughter’s hospital visit, and one of the most trying times of our young lives: comfort.

Full Story Here

“Remove the Pussy Son”

In quotes on September 15, 2009 at 3:29 pm

“Don’t listen to the pussy side of you when you make a decision. People gravitate towards being a pussy. Remove the pussy, son.”
- @shitmydadsays

Questionable Fate

In Its Personal, finances on September 15, 2009 at 1:06 pm

So angry today. When I ran, I actually cried most of the time. This never happens and it was strange, yes. It’s an overwhelming day of questionable fates, not enough money for house and food, and not enough changes to cause there to be enough in the near future. I’m trying not to get sucked into feelings of hopelessness, but I do feel trapped , stuck, and out of ideas. I know I’m missing something, but my ferverency to find out what that link is has waned. All I know now is how to get through only day after day, which is no way to live or thrive. Wanting a different way of life,…

“Kanyed”

In words on September 14, 2009 at 9:46 am

To cut off or interupt someone rudely

- “dude, you just totally Kanyed me in the middle of my sentence! Back off,..”

Insecurebosol 2.5

In relationships on September 14, 2009 at 7:38 am

Feeling stuck, always pissed at life? Do you feel all men are out to steal your wife or girlfriend, or that she’s always wanting someone else? In a dead end job and can’t move on? Everyone avoiding you? Feel like a total assclown?

Then ask your physician about Insecurbosol2.5 fear-release caplets.Take one caplet daily after taking a loading dose of ten caplets/day for seven days. Side effects may include a normal disposition, a positive outlook on life, better relationships, more confidence, a higher paying job, calm driving, positive reactions from others, patience, the skill to plan ahead, and the ability to relate to other people. Warnings: you may lose all capability to be a complete asshole. You also may lose the ability to blame your life on everybody else. Anger and irrationality may subside. Women may no longer be the enemy. You may experience severe realizations and feel responsibility for your own actions. Assclown friends may be a turnoff to you. Do not take if you are on MAOIs, viagra, or considering a job in certain military positions, politics, law, or car sales.
You may experience dizziness, happiness, success, feelings of compassion, ability to love, contentment, levelheadedness, friendships, and concern for others well being.
Also available in quick release suppositories and in emergecy form injectable pen(have offended party inject directly into aorta) Talk to your physician about physical activity and others drugs you are taking (like marijuana,crack cocaine, or illegally aquired vicodin) before beginning Insecurbosol2.5. Do not mix with alcohol or severe side effects may occur such as death, dying, or being dead.

You Lie!

In words on September 13, 2009 at 2:09 pm

The classiest way to respond to
anyone you disagree with
-Urban Dictionary

Snap

In snap on September 13, 2009 at 2:05 pm

It Takes A Week

In marriage, relationships, sex on September 13, 2009 at 12:19 pm

Yes, we are in one of those phases of marriage that sex is almost becoming a special occasion. I know,… I never thought so either. But the issues we are facing really have had an impact on physical intimacy. It was inevitable, and I was actually surprised it was the last thing to go. So, jokingly and sarcastically I tell my husband he should read a book on how to help women achieve orgasm, to which he replies “First, start a week before.” LMAO,…. OMG I was cracking up, but that’s exactly what’s been going on. Be nice Monday, help with the kids Tuesday, rub feet Wednesday, be nice on the phone Thursday,… And Friday! Bring the flowers and your golden!
Ok, well, this isn’t really why things are sparse, but it definately represents an important point many men ignore- build up. I, as a woman, care about the before and afters,… deeply. Butter me up and I’ll eat out of your hand. Totally screw up and, though it may not be right, I have a really hard time wanting to be nearby at all. Is it because of our specific set of difficulties, most likely. This has not been an easy time for us working out and dissecting our inner lives with a third party. Yet this is clear, and what all the “smooth talkers” have all figured out , treat your spouse like a girlfriend and be that nice guy trying to win her affections, daily. We like the special treatment and are much more willing to give ourselves in the marriage bed in return. Marriage does not mean women become automatically obligated for your needs whenever and with less effort. We’ll be happy to meet your needs if the favor is returned evenly :) .

I Call Em How I See Em

In marriage, relationships on September 12, 2009 at 10:19 am

We were going along great the other evening, meeting up with new people together, hanging out without the kids. But I’m nervous about him. Always watching to see if he’s still ” flowing” well or not. I’d already gotten the “don’t look people in the eye comment,” so I knew his insecuritues were alive and well.
I learned a new rule that night, don’t break away from the pack. Only problem that presents is, what do you do when it’s time to go home? Not promising.
Anyway, I’m enjoying our new company and we are bar hopping downtown together, but husband has to grab some food. Here is that moment, the trap: walking along with about seven other people he says “why don’t you go, I gotta grab a pizza.” I knew it when I saw it, but thought maybe he’s grown up and lost his doubts. I’m like “ok, but we don’t know where we are ending up.” Then “said” guy with us offers to let us know, so husband says “let’s go grab a bite and then meet” I’m like ” OK.” So I go with husband.
Pretty normal conversation, right? Sounds like it went well….
As everyone else walks away I look longingly as they go, knowing my fate of “catching up” with them is minimal. The scenario already laid. Cool ass new friends fade into distance and husband silently and ferverantly walks next to me, eventually saying, ” I can’t believe you would even THINK of going on with them!”
Great, here we go. I say “What? You offered?!”
Then, he continiues to ferverently walk ahead and away from me, pissed. I slow and decide to stop. I’m not chasing, that! Seriously? WTH? I’m in like three and a half inch heels and your being an ass!
The rest of the night deteriorated, with him coming back, leaving me, coming back, making demands I follow and walking away, over and over. I’m left in the middle of downtown Austin, being manipulated and fucked with! Ya, Um,…No. I finally said, “I’m going to that coffee shop, I’ll be inside. I want to go home.” More games, more accusations, me waiting for rationality to enter his head or possibly me find a ride home. I declare, “say what you mean, and mean what you say.”
About said new friends, I made a horrible first impression not showing back up, and feel terrible for that. They were really nice and cool, and now I look like the flaky jerk. Thank you so much Anthony, your little man tantrum topped off the night well, and was super helpful.
That’s what a marriage can do kids, choose wisely!

Check “yes” For Chicken Dinner

In he said she said on September 11, 2009 at 6:20 pm

He said: you know, you shouldn’t make so much eye contact with people when you’re talking to them

Me: what? What are you talking about? You mean with that guy we were just talking to?,…

He said: ya,….

Me: why in the ,….?

He said: it shows too much interest like, you’re “interested” in him

Me: that guy was gay

He said: I know but, you know

Me: I think people should keep eye contact , it’s polite. You don’t usually do that, but I do,…

He said: ya but guys think your into them if you do that

Me: but we are talking professionally, socially,… And you’re standing right next to me! And even if not, wha???!!!

He Said : just trust me. Look away sometimes,…

Me: would you like me to veil my face?

He said : *pause*

Me: maybe it would be a good idea if I just crawl behind you too, ….

He said: *more pausing*

Me: and I can’t have my own cell phone, or talk, so I have to write notes to you . And check yes or no for chicken dinner at mealtime?
Are you still gonna feed me if I don’t have sex with you?,…..

He Said : no response

Funny Fuck Up of the Evening

In Twitter, out and about on September 11, 2009 at 8:19 am

Last night we went out. Yes, we went out. The man and I were meeting people in Austin, lots by twitter name. Soooo,….. my husband, mind you, sorta hates twitter quite honestly. He’s never on or knows any “twitter names”. Actually, he’s one of those guys who messes up normal names quite often, and its hilarious! If I introduce him to an ” Ithamar” he’ll call him “Ecstacy”. Ya, IDK, weird, LOL. So when I introduced him to a twitter girl @misohungry,…. I think he heard something else. You probably know what it was, right? Cus, she did name herself after a very similar popular catch phrase, she should have known that. Unknowingly to me while he’s thinking her name is something else, we are chatting with this girl as he listens. In the interest of sparking conversation with her, notes her @ name and comments how he thinks its interesting that the ” @mesohorny” @ name is from a girl in Austin tx! ROTFLMAO,.. I couldn’t believe what I just heard. Poor hungry girl had no sense of humor about it though,… kinda disappointing cus I thought cupcake girls were funny, or at least happy from eating cupcakes. Guess not. She acted snobby about the whole thing, but, who cares,.. I was cracking up and so was Anthony. What do you expect when you name yourself that, and talk about baking naked? It was a logical jump,…

” Immaturation “

In words on September 11, 2009 at 7:12 am

The process of becoming immature

I think I know some people going through this ,…. )

Last Nights September Social Location,…

In snap on September 10, 2009 at 4:31 pm

Shoulda Picked the Astronomer

In marriage on September 9, 2009 at 12:52 pm

My husband is an astronaut,… You know those people who don’t believe in the moon, think it’s easy to get there if there was one, deny that light up in the sky, ….
Until one day someone else goes to the trouble to shoot them up there. They think it’s gonna be easy cus, everyone must be crazy with this hooha moon stuff, it’ll be a nice airplane ride perhaps. Then once they realize they’re in space, and experience the difficuluty it took to get there, and step their damn foot on the moon itself, do they finally believe us. Cost us a lot of time and money to convince them! But now they realize; trouble is when they got back to earth they started arguing with us that planet mars didn’t exist either. See! They never learn! Heaven forbid they take reasoning, evidence,… perhaps a telescope into their hands and look for themselves. No. They wait till someone sends them to mars, to “experience” it.

Of course this is all a metaphor as to how people are stubborn and don’t ever take anyone else’s advice. When they’re finally done making a mess of things they say “oh, crap, woulda been much easier and more sensible the other way.” Um, ya. But, go ahead, explore yourself away and let me know when you get it all figured out. In the meantime I’ll be learning from other people and moving forward, let me know when you’re done re-inventing the wheel shuttle mission specialist.

Mazeltov To Me!

In Its Personal on September 8, 2009 at 2:58 pm

It’s a beautiful day

Happy Birthday Angel

In birthdays on September 8, 2009 at 12:14 pm

Happy 11th Birthday to my lovely first baby, Alexandria. Her life created who I am today…. I’ll always remember the first pretty smile she gave me, our fun times playing and giggling, her sweet spirit and compassionate heart. I wont forget our first year, just her and I: playing at home, rocking in the chair singing, learning together, strolls outside, fun at the park, and turning her mobile in the crib watching her toothless smile light up. Her bassinet next to our bed, all the millions of pictures taken, first ice creams and first steps. She’s been a wonderful sister, a caring friend, and second hand to mommy, a bright and shiny life. I love her with everything I have, she is altogether lovely. May she prosper abundantly, live in peace and happiness, and be blessed always.

Sloppy Dating

In marriage, relationships on September 7, 2009 at 9:54 am

Really? Seriously? I had a ” date ” with my husband the other night, and uhhh, hmm, it was interesting. It just wasn’t his night I’d say. I’d also say, I think I might have high expectations? No, actually, I don’t. We’ve been out with other people before and they be surprised at the things he’d say in front of me. Boys, it doesn’t matter if you’ve been married five years or thirty years, girls still want a nice date. There is this little thing called etiquette- you know what’s appropriate to say and do, and what’s not. Anything above appropriate is extra points! You gotta transition away from shooting the shit with all the guys and remember, we got the goods you want, and you gotta swoon it out of us! Married or not, these are a no go: I’m never ok with the passing gas right next to me thing. Not a turn on, total sexual turn off. Next. If I am speaking, at least look at me, and try to talk back, duh. Thirdly, if you wanna flirt- don’t use the words “cock” and “ass” all over the place. Yuk! A girl appreciates sweet romantic stuff. I’m not a dude. Also, don’t steal two dollar candy and tell me, that’s just embarrassing and cheap and, um, illegal! I’m sure these things are not normal , unless you’re from the ghetto somewhere. And the passing gas thing in marriage- why is that an accepted practice?

I told the poor hubby after we were driving home ” If I was dating you, I’d never call you again!” I also told him to get it together, you’re just being sloppy. LOL. Greatness.

Strangled at a Threshold

In Its Personal, relationships on September 5, 2009 at 3:57 pm

Is this the man that I will have a good life with? Will I ever thrive and flourish or just continue to struggle and agonize? Will I prosper or merely survive? This is THE moment, when I’m supposed to know better. All of a sudden I awoke from being passive and feel incredibly rushed. If I grow a day older, I feel, I’ll lose any chance I had to try again. To be successful on my own, or to be attractive at all. This is a horrible feeling. It’s as if someones holding me by the throat and telling me to speak, I couldn’t even if I wanted to.
What will become of me, how will it all end up. How can I make sure I get to where I know I need to be and enjoy my life,….

Labor Day Cooking Stuff

In family, food on September 4, 2009 at 12:40 pm

How am I going to feed a family of six? The kids have three days off, which equals lots of groceries. Looking at Labor Day recipes for ideas, I realize it’s all 20060904_fg10so unhealthy!! Sorry, but I am not a junky eater unless, well, it’s an emergency! I don’t need to feel yuck just to have meaty, sugary American food on my table like everyone markets. In my search for enjoyable, nutritious ideas I found a nifty resource online- Eating Well . They have lots of specialty recipes such as if your gluten free, strictly whole grains, diabetic,… Etc. Food network could easy land you into a hospital if you go along with their food hype for too long, or at least gain you a few hundred pounds!

So here’s what I came up with for our weekend, get ready it’s a list:

Starting with my signiture recipe,….

Fish Tacos in steamed corn shells topped with red cabbage, mandarin oranges, jalapeño ranch sauce, red onion, and cucumber, served with black beans

Oatmeal breakfast with fresh berry salad on top

Spicy turkey burgers with corn on the cob, topped with lime, chili, served with green salad and fresh pears

Whole grain pancake breakfast topped with fresh fruit, with turkey sausage

Poppy seed chicken dinner with fresh green beans sauté in olive oil and almond slivers, green salad with papaya poppy seed dressing, and fresh fruit dipped in dark chocolate dessert

Omelet breakfast filled with southwestern veggies- tomatoes, cilantro, onion, and jalapenos, with a corn tortilla and avocado on the side

*deep breath*

snacks to choose from include celery, apples, pretzels, carrots, broccoli, yogurt, snap peas, and peanuts

lunches are tuna wraps or natural peanut butter and whole fruit spread sandwiches or turkey hot dogs

Ok, things are getting better and its obvious I’m feeling pretty good when I start cooking. It’s my barometer, happy Amber = cooking foodie Amber. Now you know. So its all planned and at my house, lets hope I cook it!

He’s Being Such a Good Boy

In marriage, relationships on September 4, 2009 at 12:38 pm

What else is there to say? I’m super proud of my husband,…. He’s working so hard on personal stuff and being very nice. Now I remember THIS guy !

Did you know you could drink me!?

In Twitter on September 3, 2009 at 9:10 pm

Thanks to @Alex_Austin (Website Here) , for mistakenly promoting AMBER AUSTEN instead of Austin Amber tonight at a local show,… Classic!